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8.31.2004

I think the concept of infinity is one that is difficult, if not impossible to grasp by the human mind because we think in terms of finite space and time. We wonder how big or how small a thing is. We wonder how close or how far something is. Does it ever occur to us that everything is here now? No, we think in terms of time and space and distance and size and speed. Infinity is now (location in space) and Here (location in time). If you could do time travel, when you arrived in the future or the past, you would still be 'here now' in relation to you, the observer. No matter where you go, you are always here now, therefore Infinity is always with you.

I believe the universe is as large as we decide it is or want it to be. What is the point of anything existing if there are no observers to observe it? I think that if absolutely all attention is taken off something, it will cease to exist, fading like a dream does in the morning upon awakening.

Composed @ 7:33 PM

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8.26.2004

do you believe in god? i do...but i hate him. i loathe him. i despise him. i know that he is the 'almighty' as they say, the one who created us all.. but what's the point? who knows, maybe we are all just part of his experiment. an experiment which he created so that he will know where he, himself, originated?! the bible told us that when god finished creating the world, he said that it was good...maybe up to now he still thinks it is still good. why? because he only watches us from a distance...he only sees what he wants to see. he shuts his eyes and refuses to listen to poverty, injustice, greed, loneliness and oppression...but he is aware that these things exist. he never experienced these things...well, maybe he did, at some point in time when he went down here as the son of man. but it's still not enough, because as my beloved memnoch said, he is in human form but he is still aware that he is god, therefore he doesn't really feel REAL pain that normal people do. it is true that the son of man died in a horrible way, but what's the point? to prove that he knows our suffering? did he think that it was enough? during those times many die on the cross every single day, what made him so special? ...back to his creation of the world, why does suffering outweigh the beauty? i am forever grateful for all his blessings but...i cannot simply disregard the pain, the suffering... if he is all-loving, then why does he forbid us to leave this earth? he should be sensitive enough to even apologize for making us stay here.

Composed @ 4:30 PM

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8.15.2004

Do you know what it means to be crazy? I'm goin to tell you a story. A powerful wizard, who wanted to destroy an entire kingdom, placed a magic potion in the well from which all inhabitants drank. Whoever drank the water would go mad. The following morning, the whole population drank from the well and they all went mad, apart from the king and his family, who had a well set aside for them alone, which the magician had not managed to poison. The king was worried and tried to control the population by issuing a series of edicts governing security and public health. The policemen and the inspectors, however, had also drunk the poisoned water, and they thought the king's decisions were absurd and resolved to take no notice of them. When the inhabitants of the kingdom heard these decrees, they became convinced that the king had gone mad and was now giving nonsensical orders. They marched on the castle and called for his abdication. In despair the king prepared to step down from the throne, but the queen stopped him, saying: 'Let us go and drink from the communal well. Then we will be the same as them.' And that was what they did: The king ang the queen drank the water of madness and immediately began talking nonsense. Their subjects repented at once; now that the king was displaying such wisdom, why not allow him to continue ruling the country? The country continued to live in peace, although its inhabitants behaved very differently from those of its neighbors. And the king was able to govern until the end of his days.~I want to continue being crazy, living my life the way I dream it, and not the way other people want it to be. Do you know what exists out there? People who have drunk from the same well. They think they're normal, because they all do the same thing. ~Veronika Decides to Die

Composed @ 8:49 PM

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Many of us do not remember our dreams. When we wake up in the morning to begin our day, we have no recollection of the images our mind possesses in its sleep. Yet science would tell us we dream every night. Where have our dreams gone? From birth we were raised to hear that our dreams have no importance. Do you remember your mother holding you as a child and saying: "Don't worry, dear, it's ONLY a dream."? In this society that values measurable, scientific data, the importance of dreams has diminished to only random brain activity. We no longer deem our dreams valuable. As modern people, we have explored the vastness of our small planet. We have been to both poles, traveled across unchartered seas in search of exotic lands, and left footprints upon the moon. We have forgotten the worlds that lie under, beyond and within our own. We have forgotten that there are other worlds.

Composed @ 8:03 PM

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"Evil is a point of view. We are immortal. And what we have before us are the rich feasts that conscience cannot appreciate and mortal men cannot know without regret. God kills, and so shall we; indiscriminately he takes the richest and the poorest, and so shall we; for no creatures under God are as we are, none so like him as ourselves, dark angels not confined to the stinking limits of hell but wandering his earth and all its kingdoms." -Lestat

Composed @ 7:13 PM

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AnNe

anne rice novels, sandman and the endless, fight club and tyler's philosophies, vampires, myths, witchcraft, churches, graveyards, baywalk, egypt and other ancient civilizations, photography, existentialism, abstract art, insomnia, aliens, lestat, vainglorious people, paranoia, conversations, sleepless nights, music, red horse, sleepovers, walkathon, gigs, stars, city lights, casper, dreams, emo tripping, misadventures, music, pinoy bands, singing, writing, rainy days, meeting strange people, foreign languages, depression, sunsets, life and death, atlantis, adolf hitler, full moon, insanity and schizophrenia, zombies, loners and posers like me, nostalgia, classic and silent movies, soul-searching, laugh trip, sound trip, food trip, humanity, my blog, god.

DREAMS

i am a materialistic person so my dreams involve material things:

sandman library

complete set of vampire chronicles

more books!

cds! cds! cds!

complete set of naruto series :p

ps2 games!
aside from material things..

i want to live in baguio

i want to earn money for myself

i want to help our country. haha.

i want to travel around the world
that's it for now! ciao!