music is the heartbeat of my soul

Compositions

2.27.2005

i can never be more than your puppet and clown, can i? do you even see me, or are you too preoccupied of playing king in your self-built kingdom? why are you so distant?

i keep on hurting myself just to see if you care. i keep on killing myself just to get your attention. i love you and my love is beyond infinity itself.

we will forever be trapped in this deception circus. truth does not exist here. love cannot exist here. only bitterness and lies. only pain and hatred.

you raised me from the dead just so you can kill me again. i thought we shared the same pipe dream of freedom. you blinded me with the illusion that i'm not alone.

...haha. i know. i'm not making any sense at all. i just need to let it all out...

Composed @ 6:21 PM

Comments:

will anyone really care? no one gives a fuck about who we are. no one gives a damn about what we are and what we are going through. nobody cares. they just give us a moment of the so-called care and love that everyone needs. it will last but a moment. it will be nothing more but a mere illusion afterwards. what are we? are we human beings? are we aliens? no one can ever know but still, they attempt to know. what is science? what is fiction? who deciphers what is real and what is not? i don't understand. will i ever? or will i refuse to understand? nothing matters anymore... bakit dito ako gumagawa ng entry?

# posted by

Bea Litao : 7:48 PM

sino yan?di naman ako yan noh?haha feeling...-baduy

# posted by

Anonymous : 10:52 PM

Post a Comment

WELCOME

This skin is made in IE version 6.0 with 1024*768 resolution.

Sorry for those with 800*600 resolution, if u hate horizontal scrolling

Other browsers untested

PORTFOLIO

AnNe

anne rice novels, sandman and the endless, fight club and tyler's philosophies, vampires, myths, witchcraft, churches, graveyards, baywalk, egypt and other ancient civilizations, photography, existentialism, abstract art, insomnia, aliens, lestat, vainglorious people, paranoia, conversations, sleepless nights, music, red horse, sleepovers, walkathon, gigs, stars, city lights, casper, dreams, emo tripping, misadventures, music, pinoy bands, singing, writing, rainy days, meeting strange people, foreign languages, depression, sunsets, life and death, atlantis, adolf hitler, full moon, insanity and schizophrenia, zombies, loners and posers like me, nostalgia, classic and silent movies, soul-searching, laugh trip, sound trip, food trip, humanity, my blog, god.

DREAMS

i am a materialistic person so my dreams involve material things:

sandman library

complete set of vampire chronicles

more books!

cds! cds! cds!

complete set of naruto series :p

ps2 games!
aside from material things..

i want to live in baguio

i want to earn money for myself

i want to help our country. haha.

i want to travel around the world
that's it for now! ciao!