Compositions
3.23.2005
...you know you can save me, but why did you leave?...
Composed @ 8:55 PM
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3.21.2005
i just watched EQUILIBRIUM a while ago..it's a really nice movie. it's a science fiction where people use some sort of medicine to block off all emotions. why? according to the movie, a third world war broke and only chosen people survived. these people were led by a person whom they call FATHER. this father believed that the cause of war is hatred, jealousy and revenge. true enough...however, this father believed that these negative emotions cannot be taken away without eradiacting ALL our emotions. so he invented a medication called POZIUM [i'm not sure]. people inject this medicine to themselves at certain times to block off ALL their emotions. people are forbidden to own things that can evoke emotions..things such as paintings, musical records, books and the like. their world was so DULL...then, the protagonist [cleric john preston played by CHRISTIAN BALE!] met a sense offender [that's what they call people who collect things that are forbidden by law] named Mary. by the time he met Mary, he already stopped taking his dosage of pozium so in a way he can already feel. while he was questioning Mary as to why she was collecting those things, she replied: "Why are we alive?...We exist to continue our existence. What's the point?" ..how dreadfully true. i'm sixteen years old and i haven't figured out yet what my purpose in life is. how long could it possibly take me to figure it out then? i don't even know HOW i became alive. i mean, i don't where it all started..don't we all? we may have our own religions, our own beliefs, our own gods...but it's not enough. these beliefs are merely guides. something we can hold on to. it is just our response to being alive and having to die. perhaps we aren't suppose to know it all. perhaps we are here simply to experience life and NOT to explain it.
Composed @ 7:44 PM
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3.11.2005
i dedicate this song to MYSELF...
EVERYBODY'S FOOL
perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that
never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled
look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she
never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
without the masks where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie
i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore
it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool
...well. not exactly to myself, but to the identity i've been using. to the mask i've been wearing. to my pretensions and lies.
Composed @ 8:32 PM
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...fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars...
Composed @ 8:24 PM
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3.10.2005
highschool life is over. almost. just one week to go and it's all over. the late night cramming, the overnight research papers, the surprise quizzes...all gone. pft! it's over. and what follows next? FREEDOM. two months of freedom...then comes college. fuck. i don't have any college yet. haha. what a loser.
anyway. i don't want to think about it right now. i just wanted to thank everyone for putting up with my bad attitude. i'm sorry for being such a loser. i'm sorry fo being such a whiner. i'm sorry for being such a burden. thank you for the memories. thank you for the patience. thank you for the understanding. thank you for the acceptance.
emoness. what is wrong with me?! haaaaaaaaay. i'll miss you all. :)
let's change the topic: i think i'm getting over it..my imaginary love life that is. haha. i'm letting go. it's been a loooooooong time. :)
i like this line from the song you're a god: you're a god and i am not, and i just thought i'd let you go..
how true. i finally realized it..what are the chances? highly fucking unlikely. i'm not bitter..i swear. i think he's happy where he is. and i think i should start being happy too...haha. this is life. it can't always be my way. :) wow. a lesson well learned. it took me one fucking year to actually learn that...i think i've got a new motto. wake up and live [bob marley].
Composed @ 8:56 PM
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3.03.2005
masyado nang nawawalan ng saysay ang buhay ko. tsk. puro school work! school work! school work! i'm losing grip of my diversity! it's about time to gain it back...balik na naman ako sa mga MISadventures ngayong summer:
1. graveyard-hopping and church-hopping. i want to collect pictures of graveyards and churches. [wahoo! aphro, we WILL open our own exhibit...]
2. as much as possible, attend ALL music events. [aphro, namimiss na tayo nung mga TRAKERS!!]
3. ride the ferry boat and/or sailboat at manila bay just before sunset. awww. haha. masaya yun!
4. EK! EK! EK! space shuttle and anchor's away! wahoo! [huntingin natin ung clown! haha.]
5. road trip papuntang tagaytay. hay. kay saya. problema lang yung transpo. haha.
6. as much as possible, attend ALL gigs of spongecola, rivermaya and kjwan! [chuba, street team na 'to!! haha.]
7. makapasok ng sanctum. tsk. nakabaon ata sa ilalim ng lupa yun eh...ayos lang. hahanapin ko pa rin!! kahit na late nagbubukas. haha.
8. hintayin ULIT ung sunrise sa baywalk. pangako hindi ko na kayo tutulugan. haha.
9. inuman sessions sa antel! yey! roof deck!! hay. kay ganda ng view.
10. MOVIEHOUSE marathon. alam ko mahal...pero gusto ko pa rin ma-try.
11. videoke fest! non-stop singing!! ayaw ko na sa rob, ang pangit ng videoke dun...sa harrison na lang. haha.
12. makapasok muli sa planetarium. maganda sa loob nun! para kang nasa kalawakan. [aphro, ang tagal na nating plano nito...ituloy na natin!]
13. mag-explore ng mga bars sa malate, quezon at pasig...lalo na mayric's! [hay chuba, mapapakinabangan na natin ung mapa mo!]
14. eto cheesy pero gusto kong ma-try mag stargazing sa sunken garden ng up...mwahaha.
15. magmuni- muni sa baywalk...haha. mong, eto na ung mtv moments natin!
16. roundtrip ng lrt at mrt...baclaran to monumento. haha. tapos taft to north edsa. woohoo!
17. walkathon uli sa divisoria!! [nene, pasensya na nung dinamay kita at muntik pa tayong mawala. haha. umuulan pa man din noong panahong iyon.]
18. hay. walkathon naman sa quiapo! [nene, damayan mo uli ako! haha.]
19. manuod ng play. kahit anong play. basta gusto ko talagang manuod ng play.
20. matuto mag-gitara. hay. hanggang pangarap na lang ata ito eh...pero itatry ko pa rin. woohoo! eto na ang simula ng pagsikat ng merkshack plus the bouncer!
Composed @ 8:19 PM
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